nothing ...

Nothing in my mind .. nothing inside my heart .. my heart is empty .. nobody inside it .. my heart's change since the day i do the same fault i've already do in the past .. i can't forgive my self ..


Why i very simple to be confused about love? why i always do something like that? why i never reach my goal? to be with him? why i always hurt myself by hurting someone? is it not enough for me to feel the same pain? why i can't thinking again before i make some choice?


Am i idiot? am i not enough strong? am i weak? am i? am i?


Oh god .. i just need a power to done this .. i'm tired do something like that .. i'm too weak for do this .. and i'm not ready if he start to hate me ..